thoughts

Yes, I have a kajillion things to blog about. However, I've had a few other thoughts on my mind that I thought I would share. 

Being a mother of two has been wonderful, but it sure is HARD (two hardest parts - 1. healing up/feeding and 2. teaching Michael not to kill Thomas (unintentionally of course)!) 

Some days are great and I feel up to doing everything. Other days I feel completely worn-out, exhausted, tired, drained, and d.o.n.e. The other night as I lay in my bed crying (and praying) and trying to sleep, I learned a few beautiful things and was reminded of some promptings I had received that day. 

So, I used to serve in a position in our church where I was often helping other women work through hard things in their lives, learn to rely on the Savior, and to do all they could to learn from and appreciate the hard things that are naturally a part of this mortal life. This was during a relatively carefree time in my life.

The other day as I sat thinking about how hard things were for me I had a flood of thoughts come into my mind - things I'd said a million times to different women. Things that now applied DIRECTLY TO ME. Things like:


- take it one day at a time. or a half day at a time. or ten minutes at a time. (remember, God gave His people manna one day at a time. this talk is one I've always LOVED.)
- pray for angels. they are real.
- do the small things - study your scriptures (even if it is for tidbits here and there throughout the day), pray, fast, go to the temple as often as you can (not too much pressure now), attend all church meetings
- ask for a priesthood blessing
- be grateful - find things to be grateful for
- find someone to serve
- read your patriarchal blessing
- ask your visiting teachers for HELP!  
- eat healthy, get enough sleep, and try and exercise (we'll get around to this one, right?)

These thoughts were for me this time. And I was so grateful for them. As I lay in bed crying - I prayed for angels. (Those of you who don't know me should know that I firmly believe in angels and know that we have help from the other side. I pray, almost every day, for angels to stand at the doors of our home and to watch over us. I know they are real, just as I know that God is real and that He is our Father.) As I prayed for angels the thought came to me - "They are already here." That was comforting. I've gone back to that thought often. (In fact, I'll blog later about a few guardian angels who have watched over Thomas when Michael has done some pretty incredible things!)


Anyways, the other thought I had was about asking my visiting teacher (I just have one) for help. That is hard to do. Especially when you wonder, "what do I need help with?" "Do I ask her to scrub the bathroom? Hold Thomas? Let me sleep?" I'm still figuring this one out. 


Now, don't get me wrong - I am not dying over here, in fact, today was a pretty good day. I just made wheat bread, I was feeling THAT good. And yes, I'm still on Ibuprofen. And, I have a pretty INCREDIBLE husband. When he isn't working/studying for the CPA exam, he is helping me out 24/7 - and he gets up with me at night. He really has been my hero, and a real angel. This is our life and we're doing it together. Also, our families have been incredible and have helped out a ton - especially with Michael (my mom has been super-mom and has taken him so many days I can't even count!). I am definitely surviving. I just have my moments, folks. 


Anyways, isn't it ironic and beautiful how your own words come back to preach to you when you need them most? Words from your past answering questions from your future. I'm grateful to be reminded of these simple things and I know they will make a huge difference in my life. Thanks for listening.